I have a new Lee journal. I will leave this one up for a bit, but probably won't update it much.

Come see the new one at livejournal. There's not much there yet, but there will be. *g*

I talked to my dear friend, M., today on the phone. She still hasn't seen any of Lee's work, despite my rather desperate attempts to get her to watch Oz. I told her about the Oz finale and recapped the BK story for her. Despite my sadness over the story, I was all revved up talking about Lee. You should have heard me. I was positively oozing excitement. I love talking about that man! *g*

I told M that one of these days, I am going to gather all my Oz DVDs and tapes and drive up to her house in New Jersey and show her some really good Beecher scenes - the ones that don't have too much violence. M. hates to watch violent t.v. shows and movies, which is why she never tried to watch Oz. I told her about ``Shot in the Heart'' and suggested she look for it in the video store. She might, depending on her mood. She can't watch depressing movies when she feels depressed. I'm the same way.

For the most part, M. and I have very similar tastes in movies, television and music, so I just know she's going to love Lee. I'm really excited about showing her his work. I have to make those plans soon.

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I just spoke to Danielle on the phone. She is on her way home from the book signing. It sounds like Lee was in his usual, crazy, smart-ass mode. I can't wait until she writes up her report.

Lee Tergesen's performance on last night's episode was brilliant. (I use that word a lot here don't I? Can't help it.) I especially loved watching the balcony scene. Despite the anger between Beecher and Keller, there was still tenderness and raw emotion. When Beecher told Keller he was death, Lee really let Beecher's emotions come through. From my POV, Beecher was absolutely torn up as he spoke the words. That's what Lee made me see and feel.

The only thing the really pissed me off was Beecher admitting to Sr. Pete that he was going to rat Keller out. That just seems so out of character to me. Even though he had a very good reason for doing so, the fact that he would manipulate the truth bothered me. I just didn't buy it. Not for a second. And I do recall saying on my list a week or so ago that Keller would never confess to those killings and from what Toby said, I was right. *g* Sorry, I just needed to point that out.

Good news. Rami is not going curling after all, so I will be going over to her house to watch Oz. Yay! It makes me a little less nervous about watching tonight. By the time I get home, it will be too late to post anything about my reaction to the show. Guess it will have to wait until tomorrow.

Must keep chanting ``I still believe. I still believe. I still believe.''

With all the BK fanfic I've been writing lately, Lee has been on my mind constantly. Well, Lee's face with Beecher's personality. LOL. You might be thinking, ``So what's new?'' That I always think about Lee and that's true. I think about him daily, but these last few days, I've had this clear vision of his face sort of hovering in the corner of my subconscious constantly. I am not sure if it's good or bad. Perhaps neither.

Part of me is dreading watching the last episode of Oz tomorrow, but part of me is anticipating it, too. I can't wait to see the BK scene where they talk. I heard about it, of course, but I want to see their facial expressions and hear their tones. I'm a little scared and I will be watching it alone. Rami has curling. :( P. will be here, but he will probably be sleeping, so I will essentially be alone. I need someone to commisserate with. Ah well.

``I know what I know and I know I'd love to be ogled. Go ahead. Think of me as a piece of meat. Undress me with your eyes. Get hot for my bod. I'm not asking you I'm telling you.'' -- Chett in Show Chett.

Uh, okay, Lee. Happy to oblige. ;)

This quote has been running in my head all day with all this worry about not being able to find my tape. I wonder how much input Lee had in this episode. Was it his idea? Did he suggest some of the dialogue? Did he love doing this? I'm really curious. I'd probably never have the guts to ask him, though. Or would I? *eg*

Well, I mailed off the Chett tapes to Chicago yesterday. Two tapes with a total of 19 Weird Science episodes on them. Should be enough to keep Mav's and LeahAnne's mind off the BK tragedy this coming Sunday night. They may have to stay up all night watching Chett's antics and won't that be fun?

Unfortunately, I did not find my tape with the Show Chett episode before I headed over to fed ex. *sniff* I have looked high and low for this tape and it is nowhere to be found. I had it out about a month ago to watch it, but it is nowhere near my t.v. Nor under it. It's not under my couch. It's not in my video cabinet and it's not on my desk. I didn't lend it to anyone and my boys assure me they have not touched it. *sigh* What am I to do? Whoa is me.

It might surprise some people that when I created my Tobyfan nickname I had not yet seen an episode of Oz. I actually first came up with the nickname when I was registering for a West Wing message board. Everyone had nicknames and I wanted one. LOL. Toby Ziegler, who is played by Richard Schiff, was (and still is) my favorite character on that show, so I thought it appropriate. I even created an email addy using it for the same reason. And even though I still watch West Wing, my focus on Richard Schiff and *that* Toby lasted about six months.

Then I saw CLaK. You know that story. I figured, Tobyfan fit in well with the Oz fandom, too, so I continued to use that email address and nickname, although not when writing my fanfic. I like to see my name on my writing and the world be damned. *g* Now, when I used my Tobyfan nickname for my blogs and such, it makes me think solely of Beecher and Lee. Just an fyi in case anyone cares. ;)

Time to head over to fed ex and mail some Chett tapes to my list sibs!

I watched ``The Shot'' today. Or, rather, I fast-forwarded through most it. What a bad movie. Although I certainly wanted to see Lee's two tiny scenes, I also wanted to figure out which actress in the movie was Lee's first wife, Tanya Lewis. She is only credited as ``waitress.'' I think I figured out which one she is, though. Maybe I could send a question to Ask Lee? *snort* In her credits on IMDB.com, she is only listed in this movie and one episode of Weird Science, which I do not have on tape. Ah well. I have only seen one picture of her but I think I picked her out in the movie in an early scene inside a diner. She only had about three lines and she was cranky. LOL. She had long, brown, wavy hair and she was pretty. She's no Leslie, though. ;)

Lee's scenes, although brief, were fun to watch. In the second one, he delivered one of his lines in a way that reminded me of the hole scene in The Tip when he said, ``Ssssscott Ross.'' Perhaps I've been watching too much Lee Tergesen stuff? Nah.

I am feeling my Oz depression starting to lift today. Not sure why, but I am happy about it. I wrote some more of ``Promise You'' and that may have been part of it. Also had a fun phone chat with one of my list sibs, which put a big smile on my face. Plus, you know, I thought of Lee and that always makes me happy.

I never thought I'd get tired of talking about Oz and Beecher and Keller, but the discussion on my list is starting to tire me out. Lots of people are just repeating themselves in a vain attempt to get others to agree with them. I don't get it really. Why is one opinion more valid than another? I'm all for spirited discussion, but it's starting to get snarky and a few of the posters who seem to want to egg everyone on just need to shut up and stop posting for a bit. Many of us are feeling tired and sad and betrayed by Tom Fontana and I don't think any amount of arguing is going to make us change our minds.

So, onto more pleasant topics.

Two days ago, I watched ``Wayne's World II,'' my favorite of the two WW movies. I love the scene where the guys are spying on Cassandra, get caught and try to escape by running to a gay bar where they end up dancing to ``YMCA.'' Lee is wearing a sailor suit in the scene and looks quite adorable. He gives a couple of heart-stopping smiles while he's dancing to the music. I laugh out loud every time I watch that scene. And those nice, snug white pants he wears don't hurt the eyes either. *g*

When I was in Chicago last summer, I was searching out sites in the city where movies had been filmed. I had found a really helpful website before I went and had notes on places to go. My husband and kids thought I was little nutty. But I found the area where the guys drove down the road while singing ``Bohemian Rhapsody.'' It wasn't really recognizable because there had been many changes in the years since it was filmed but I took pictures anyway. I tried to convince P. we needed to go find another WW's film site, but it was far away and he wasn't convinced. Ah well. It was still fun.

Looking at last night's Oz episode purely from a performance point of view, I think Lee had a very good night with one minor exception. I am just flabbergasted at the ``I can still cry speech.'' It had a false ring to it and maybe it was supposed to. I didn't like it. Lee should have told Tom to go fuck himself and refused to say it. *shudder* I don't get why these actors are so loyal to Tom but that's a rant for another day.

I loved watching the scene on stage between Lee and Chris - not so much for the content as for the chemistry between the actors. They're like two professional dancers who can predict each other's moves without fail. They work together gracefully and beautifully. It's a treat to watch them, even if they're given crap to do. Who else could have even made that foolish dialogue even remotely watchable? No one, I say, except Lee and Chris.